Christmas 2012

Whoever said that love can be defined, surely has not experienced real love. It cannot be defined by kisses, or hugs, or gifts, or words or even actions. Because I can't even though I know, I love. I love without expecting anything in return. Though it may hurt and it be hard to keep my dignity and pride whole, I still love. I love with a hope that maybe it may be returned without expecting that it may be so.

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This Christmas, the phrase "love also means forgiveness and hope" hit me right on the spot. So many things had happened this year that should have made me bitter, angry, made and confused yet there are also events that reminded me to trust that He has a purpose for everything. A purpose we may never know or understand in this lifetime but a purpose that He only knows.

This Christmas, the common gift that we hear from anyone would be "World Peace" and that has meant something to me as well. I didn't think of war stopping or storms ceasing; I thought about what lay in the hearts of the individual person. Peace... can only be attained when one stops being jealous of what they don't have and start being thankful with what they do have. When they do that, they will realize how blessed they are and stop arguing for things they think they should have.

This Christmas, I completed my wish list. And rarely does that happen. Though it might also be because I settled for simple things that make me happy and not anymore the things that I don't really need.

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"I just wanted to get up the courage to say I missed you". She whispered in the dark

and he hugged her close.

"I missed you too"

You and Me

The best time to say that you already found the right one is when you stop looking for more.

Christmas is that time of year

It's that time of year again, when you hear carols being sung. When trees pause to let their arms be filled with tinsel and everyone gives for the sake of giving. I'm especially excited for this year's Christmas because now I have money to buy my love ones presents. Also, this year I have decided to "accept" Christ as being part of my life. :)

Get Over It!

As I was hanging out with my friends today and sharing news and all that friends do... They told me to just "get over it" ("IT" probably referring to my anger at my ex-bf for leaving etc...) but I don't think they understand me.

I understand him because I know where he's coming from. I have forgiven him because I love him. My pain is from the fact that I have to suppress my feelings now even as we remain friends. My anger is just a shallow preview of what I feel. Probably even a defense mechanism so I won't give in to my feelings so I can support his decision too. I don't mind being misunderstood. I know it will all be alright in the end. Love doesn't have to be reciprocated the way we want it too. When we love, we give. Sometimes we even lose ourselves in the process. But if you believe in the bigger kind of love, you'll know that Someone actually gave up their life for the people He loved. Even when they didn't love Him in return. I may not be able to be that noble as I am imperfect and I can only love the way I know how. But He reminds me that Love is not limited to a human being's shallow beliefs.

A friend also told me to communicate to him like a friend. His definition being sending casual group text messages or sharing stuff... I'm not like that. I do share to my friends but I don't do that every day. I'm not even the group messaging type. I can't be someone I'm not. If he believes I'm a friend that I'm a friend. I'll treat him as a friend - my way... If I'm needed I'll be there. I won't be holding grudges. I will be supportive when needed. Will scold if needed. A friend in the truest sense of the word. :)

"Love is forgiving even before asked. Understanding even without being told to do so. Knowing the bad and the good but accepts both. Giving love even if it isn't returned." ~ Nyx