As I was hanging out with my friends today and sharing news and all that friends do... They told me to just "get over it" ("IT" probably referring to my anger at my ex-bf for leaving etc...) but I don't think they understand me.
I understand him because I know where he's coming from. I have forgiven him because I love him. My pain is from the fact that I have to suppress my feelings now even as we remain friends. My anger is just a shallow preview of what I feel. Probably even a defense mechanism so I won't give in to my feelings so I can support his decision too. I don't mind being misunderstood. I know it will all be alright in the end. Love doesn't have to be reciprocated the way we want it too. When we love, we give. Sometimes we even lose ourselves in the process. But if you believe in the bigger kind of love, you'll know that Someone actually gave up their life for the people He loved. Even when they didn't love Him in return. I may not be able to be that noble as I am imperfect and I can only love the way I know how. But He reminds me that Love is not limited to a human being's shallow beliefs.
A friend also told me to communicate to him like a friend. His definition being sending casual group text messages or sharing stuff... I'm not like that. I do share to my friends but I don't do that every day. I'm not even the group messaging type. I can't be someone I'm not. If he believes I'm a friend that I'm a friend. I'll treat him as a friend - my way... If I'm needed I'll be there. I won't be holding grudges. I will be supportive when needed. Will scold if needed. A friend in the truest sense of the word. :)
"Love is forgiving even before asked. Understanding even without being told to do so. Knowing the bad and the good but accepts both. Giving love even if it isn't returned." ~ Nyx
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