Time may have parted us before, and pride may be the reason why I'm ignoring you now. Still, I know you know that I haven't forgotten your birthday. had we been together, I would have said I love you. That it has been a blessing knowing you and being part of your life. I watched you as you had let God took over. I was there when you decided to go learn and be a pastor. I felt your sadness when a close family friend died and I shed a tear for the sadness that you might feel. I heard you express your dreams and ambitions. I felt your enthusiasm as you shared your hopes for the church. I sat by the phone as you talked about being a Bible translator and tried encouraging you when I felt you need a push. On your birthday, I would have wanted to call you up at 11:59 and greet you first, alas I decided it would be best to just forget it and move on.
Happy birthday, you may not have heard me say it but I whispered it to the sky. My words, my wishes, my kisses. God bless you in your endeavors and may He encourage you and give you strength. As you walk your own path may you always keep humble and open minded. I believe that you are destined for something great. Maybe not great according to human standard, but great in the eyes of God. May you be healthy and gain weight when you get back. In one way or another and despite the pain, I feel blessed that I was able to know you and discover parts of that life with you. You showed me things that I might not be willing to see by myself. You were with me in trials that I needed a shoulder with. Thank you. Thank you for being alive. Thank you for being the love of my life (even if that part is over). Thank you Lord for everything that you are.
I watch the sun rise as I write this letter and I wonder if you will get to read it. And I wish someday, I can still watch that sun rise with you. And maybe by that time the wound has healed that when I see you, as a friend or as a lover, there will no more pain and I can laugh with you and smile with you wholeheartedly.
God bless you as you celebrate another year on this Earth!
Love,
B
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